Year 2000, I was stepping on the brink of teen years. And as I today, realise that a new decade has begun, I realised these ten years were truly the most important years of my life. In a space of ten years, I have changed so much that I do not even know where to start. I learnt about the beautiful aspects of human relationships, met wonderful people and pushed so many boundaries I never knew I could break in my work and career. As 2010 comes around, I find myself on the threshold of adulthood, kissing goodbye to every single thing I knew.
If I could sum it up, year 2009 was a year of firsts for me…especially in my career and my relationship. I learnt about developing and forming a strong bond with a person I soon grew to love the way I want to be loved.There are many things I wished I could have told my teenager self about relationships. In Time Traveler’s Wife, the main character taught his seven-year-old self all he needed to know about time traveling and the path he will take. I wish I could do that. I wish I could tell that seventeen year old girl of my past crying to her pillow on a broken heart about the importance of fighting your ego and opening your heart to let light in. I wish I could tell her that she was beautiful, smart and special, and that she had no need to fear her imperfections because once she loved herself, someone else will surely love her too.
Year 2009 also saw me starting my career as a writer. It has been exhilirating, frustrating and joyful all at the same time. I learnt so much. I learnt how to speak to strangers, how to carry conversations with strangers through phone calls, how to dress and make up, I learnt how to interview, how to ask the right questions. I learnt how to socialise at parties, how to work my way around a magazine. I attended my first fancy ball, worked hard for two magazines all by myself and soon, I find myself, inevitably….a working woman.
There are days when I find doors to my past….an oldies track playing on the radio, rediscovering a novel I once loved, meeting old friends, and I find indescribable happiness. But there are days these doors are completely shut to me, despite my efforts to mentally revisit them for a quick pick-me-up. That is when I pat the doors goodbye and move on forward, waiting for that door to pop up in my life again, its magic intact.
2009 also brought a more spiritual me into play. I find myself searching for an essence of holiness more frequently in my daily life, finding ways to communicate to the divine. This spiritual search has definitely enriched my life in a way I cannot describe, and for that I am very grateful that I am able to embark on this journey to find an answer to my questions about life.
2010 New Year Resolutions:
1) Be more alert about my health and lost two inches on my tummy. (Jog more, eat healthy and on time, get enough sleep)
2) Travel to Singapore one more time…or go on a holiday.
3)Put in more effort to dress and make up nicely than before, but watch that skin!
4) Make my money work for me.
5) Develop a lot of projects to enrich my portfolio!
6) To value my family and friends even more than I did before. I love you, all of my girls and boys.
7) To be a less shrewish girlfriend.
8) To bust a move at a dancefloor at least once. Maybe year 2010′s ball?
9)To be able to organise my time and schedule more effectively by discipline and implementation of routine.
10) To believe in God and all things good.
HAPPY 2010 EVERYBODY!
happy new year and i pray for better life and hope our target can be succes
Thanks so much!